Today was my last day at my first job since having Harper. I was so excited to start this job and feel like me again. I've always pictured myself as a career woman. Someone who is highly motivated and work oriented. At first, this job was a nice break from motherhood. It was only part-time so I still spent a lot of time with Harper. However, as time went on, I found myself missing so much about motherhood. I missed mornings with my baby. I missed being with her all the time. I missed all the firsts. My time with her started to become so fleeting like she was slipping from me. Time escaped me every day. And moments could not last long enough. Taylor and I have been struggling over the last few months trying to decided what we would do with Harper when he gets back in school. Essentially my entire pay check would be going to child care & having me work made less and less sense. I was relieved to be able to spend more time with Harper, but also sad to leave so many people that I love at this job. This is the first time I've ever really understood the term bittersweet. How can something you know is right still be so hard and sad? I'm going to miss all the people here who lifted me up, greeted me with smiles, filled with laughter, and saw me as something other than "mom."

I'm saying goodbye to my desk, to my keyboard, to all the papers I've filed, to all the counties I've helped, the all the binders I've completed, the office smells, feelings, sounds, and experiences. Work Carly will miss you. 

 But I'm so excited to steal back those morning snuggles, afternoon crafts, long walks, and precious moments with my little girl I'll cherish forever. 

Part of the re-branding of my blog has to do with this new transition in my life. As I return to being a stay-at-home mom, I still want to provide for my family in any way that I can. I hope you'll support me along this journey and love the content I'll be sharing with you guys. I'll be sharing more about this page and transition in the next few weeks.

xo, Carly